When everything just hit you.
Your mind is fill with all these thinking…
Well what can I do?… What’s with all these tears?…
I don’t wanna see myself acting like this.
But guess I can’t control how I feel.
I need to grow up and be mature…
Stay strong is what I need…
But where’s the motivations….?
Dang, I wish I’m sporty and athletic :(
I’m so bipolar, what the fuck?
Getting depress over something I don’t even know.
Always showing myself as if I’m an independent and strong person.
… yet inside, I’m really not…
Afraid that everything will fall apart…
Why am I so insecure about myself.
I shouldn’t be. and I shouldn’t care.
But words hurt. more than physical pains.
I care too much, it’s hurting my heart.
I think too much, it’s hurting my head.
I always end up to be my own enemy…
ending up hurting no one else but myself.
Music is the only thing that can understand me.
I hate how I’m not good at showing face expression.
When I’m happy, I don’t show it.
When I’m sad, I act like everything is fine.
When something is bothering me, I act like nothing is wrong, when inside my head, i know exactly what’s wrong.
When people do something special for me, I felt very happy, but I just don’t know how to show it, make them mistaking me as if I’m not appreciate them enough.
I don’t know how to “sweet talk” people, making them think that I’m mean or cold hearted.
I’ve tried, and still am trying to change that fact about myself. But the past have been holding on to me. I need sometime for my heart to be open up again.
1. First KPOP Group? DBSK
2. First KPOP Song? BoA- Rock With You
3. Favorite Male KPOP Group? BIG BANG, B2ST. (Nu’est & Block B for now)
4. Favorite Female KPOP Group? 2NE1
5. Favorite Solo Artist? Jay Park
6. Favorite KPOP Song? Too many to even list….
7. Favorite KPOP Music Video? One of the DBSK MV
8. Favorite Ballad? 2AM- This Song
9. Catchiest Tune? Zico - I’m Still Fly
10. Best Male Dancer? JAY PARK
11. Best Female Dancer? BoA, Minzy, Min (Miss A)
12. Best Male Vocalist? Jo Kwon, Im Jae Beom, Daesung
13. Best Female Vocalist? Ailee, Hyorin
14. Best Male Rapper? Zico
15. Best Female Rapper? Tasha, E.via
16. Best Male Leader? Jay Park
17. Best Female Leader? CL
18. Current song you’re listening to? E.via - Hey
19. Previous song you’re listening to? Nell- Time spent walking through memories
20. Next song you will be listening to? Tasha- black happiness
21. Current KPOP Group addiction? Nu’est, Block B
22. Current KPOP Song addiction? Nu’est face, Block B - freeze
23. Female KPOP Idol bias? Ailee
24. Male KPOP Idol bias? JAY PARK!
Tired of being a girl who always keep everything to herself.
Tired of having to be the one to listen to everyone stories while no one care to listen to her story.
Tired of having to be so insecure of her look.
Tired of feeling ugly every morning she wakes up.
Tired of not being able to express her emotion/thoughts.
Tired of being so confused.
Tired of being that girl. Me.